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Bullheaded

by DEROSNEC

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1.
Boring 03:03
Childlike yearning Constant burning Childlike lying Constant sighing I know that you must feel betrayed But I am the beast that you made If I had just gone and obeyed Then I would have died and decayed Childlike crying Constant sighing (Wake up) From your dream (Watch out) And you will scream… Lost in a fake delusion, got to get out of this state You hurt all those around you though you think you’re so great Stuck in hypocrisy I wouldn’t want to be you Thank gods I got out when I did because I would have been screwed You’re like a child Pouting, sighing You’re so boring
2.
.com 04:11
Turned on by a glowing screen This is what your life now means All your words are on display You are what you say today Click click click eraser tool you must take me for a fool (add me, add you) Just because your life's online doesn't make it worth my time (add me, add you) This way you will never feel trade it all for something real (add me, add you) Who are you? Defined by the theme you choose anonymous can never lose It doesn't matter if it's true You can make them all love you Click click click eraser tool you must take me for a fool (add me, add you) Just because your life's online doesn't make it worth my time (add me, add you) This way you will never feel trade it all for something real (add me, add you) Who are you? Faceless friends from distant lands Never will they find you bland Journal how your life's unfair Maybe then someone might care
3.
Stalker 04:04
I can’t believe that you still harass me I’d think that time would maybe make you see It’s obvious that you have not moved on What will it take for me to make you gone? I never meant for us to not be friends It’s all on you, you chose for it to end And now you won’t leave, just give me some peace You must know when it is time to release Just when I think it’s over You come a knockin’ You told me lies, you treat me like a dog In your machine I turned into a cog In retrospect there was no such thing as me Now I’m alive, no thanks to your decrees It’s almost like any good I did was lost I wish I knew that to be your friend it’d cost My right to be emotionally free A waste of time was what it came to be Just when I think it’s over You come a knockin’ Leave me alone, I have done nothing wrong Leave me alone, obsession don’t belong Leave me alone, your life has more than me Leave me alone, is that so hard to see? Just when I think it’s over You come a knockin’
4.
Beautiful 03:55
What I feel Is nothing like I am Ego wins And trembles like a lamb Raining tears of my old past life Nothing left nowhere to run Here I pray for strength to push me Only I can point that gun Fountain of hate flows right through me Transformation has begun Will I find that power in mr Inner fear is never done Sick with sweat I push ahead and climb Fear inside To go beyond This time Raining tears of my old past life Nothing left nowhere to run Here I pray for strength to push me Only I can point that gun Fountain of hate flows right through me Transformation has begun Will I find that power in mr Inner fear is never done All I want is something beautiful That I can feel within All I want is something beautiful Comfort in my skin Ice blue eyes The only eyes I see through Take my life I give it all To you.
5.
I wanna thank all each and every one of you you give me fuel I need All those years of abuse that you gave to me I draw from it excessively True change won't come just from a flame it comes from ashes (My enemies will burn) Every little word that so affected me now lives inside my memory Hearing dirty lies and rumours gives me the strength to see There is no taste quite like revenge if it's done nicely (My enemies will burn) Remember how it used to be I cried alone each night I vowed that I would make things right by getting your attention I'll make sure that you notice me cuz I'm not lazy But still you'll never ever see how much you hurt me I'll show them all a different me
6.
BreatHER 02:51
A bed of red, I walk through silently A birdlike breath in the air Tiptoe through, you caught sight of me Like a mouse in your lair There’s something growing deep in side of me I wish I knew what it was It has to do with when I look at you I wish I knew what it does Swirling, moving, I know one thing Softer, deeper, wanna be her Touching, feeling all her breathing Harder, lower, don’t you leave her A burning bush screams out silently Smoke erupts in the air There is a fire that takes a hold of me Consuming my feet and hair In my soul I have come to know That there I more in this life Now thanks to you, I know it’s possible There is no fear in our sight
7.
You’re so frustrated Manipulated It’s complicated There is no easy cure You don’t need them So you condemn Enough, I am At least you thought you were I wanted it to end And so I tried to send All those that didn’t bend Or know real life They drove me all insane And I could not contain The anger in my brain So I just said no I found it was no fun To push away everyone The clouds have blocked the sun And it’s all unknown And please let me be clear I did this out of fear And now there’s no one here I’m all alone I thought it’d be success I’d drown in it’s excess And then they’ll think I’m blessed That was my plan Remove them from the wall You don’t need them at all I don’t want them to call So it began And once they go away I’ll never have to say Would you please care to stay When I know they don’t But now I want them back Even with their stupid flack Even though they will attack And I pray they won’t You’re so frustrated Manipulated It’s complicated There is no easy cure So you need them But you condemned Not enough, I am You knew you never were You hate their reasons You hate their bullshit You hate their intellect And their delusions You wish they’d grow up That they’d reciprocate And then you realize It’s an illusion
8.
Tagalong 03:40
My body is forever covered with empty friends Reminders that they all would only pretend Can I come into your space it seems so guarded I wish that you would let me inside if you want to tagalong you will never be alone I am the shadow by your sides Until my loneliness subsides All I ever do is stay behind friends are something that I never will find If you want to tagalong You will never be alone I am the shadow by your sides until my loneliness subsides If you could put a price on me it would be lower than money I know it makes a fool of me my head feels trapped although I'm free
9.
Ex(or)cise 04:13
I run far far into eternity nothing nothing can stop I'm tearing every thing out from inside of me Those demons won't forget me They'd never dare to say goodbye They just insist to haunt me I'll never live, I'll never die I'll be reborn in flames I had to dig so I could get it out of me but nothing comes easy Be gone you ghosts deep within my past (There is nothing left in here now I know I have to choose) No one, it's only me (only me only me only me only me) I can't say, I won't try anyway but I find that my patience runs away crashing through the barriers chasing after memories I can't breathe I can't breathe, no! I feel like there is no escape for me there is no way to be free Cut deep and let it flow away from me red rivers flow through black trees No screams of pain rush past my ears they fade away so softly but once they've gone they come right back forever within me I can't take these voices tearing through my brain nothing prepared me Be gone you ghosts deep within my past (There is nothing left in here now I know I have to choose) No one, it's only me (only me only me only me only me) I can't say, I won't try anyway but I find that my patience runs away crashing through the barriers chasing after memories I can't breathe I can't breathe, no!
10.
You see my hands are steady You’ve seen my face before Soon you can take your last look And they’ll close the door I stand accused before you I have no tears to cry And you will never break me Till the day I die A criminal mind is all I All I’ve ever known they tried to reform me but I’m made of cold stone My criminal mind is all I all I’ve ever had Ask one who’s known me If I’m really so bad I am I’ve spent my life behind these steel bars I’ve paid my debt in time But being brought to justice that was my only crime I don’t regret a single action I’d do the same again These prison walls secure me And I’m numb to pain My criminal mind is all I all I’ve ever had Ask one who’s known me If I’m really so bad I am I’m made of cold stone just like these prison walls My criminal mind Is all I’ve ever known Before you hand me over before you read my sentence I’d like to say a few words here in my own defense Some people struggle daily they struggle with their conscience till the end I have no guilt to haunt me I feel no wrong intent A criminal mind is all I All I’ve ever known they tried to reform me but I’m made of cold stone My criminal mind is all I all I’ve ever had Ask one who’s known me If I’m really so bad I am
11.
Nothing 04:41
Ocean tides call breaking winds that sing to me Raven flies and calls my name respectfully Violet burns into my eyes breaking through the grass’ sighs from knowing That spirits are in everything There is nothing I can bring Worth sowing I am nothing. I walk among the truths in forms of towering trees Their eyes bore into me and view what no one sees. I am nothing.

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released August 5, 2012

All songs were written and performed by Nina Helene Hirten (Derosnec) except: "A Criminal Mind" was written by Lawrence Gowan and performed by Nina Helene Hirten and Erica "Unwoman" Mulkey. Mastered by Phil Demetro at Lacquer Channel mastering, Toronto.

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DEROSNEC Los Angeles, California

DEROSNEC is the multimedia audiovisual project of Nina Helene Hirten. With her unusually low voice and wide operatic vocal range, she makes music that pulls from many genres to create a moody and fresh sound. Her lyrics range from politics and philosophy to her own experience and feelings, and are unusually straightforward while being simultaneously laced with double meanings and word play. ... more

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